Why me?

This pain that hits me so hard that I lay on the floor cringing, please take it away. This pain that brings no tears to my face because it hurts too deep, please take it away. I’ve been in this darkness too long, and I’ve given up hope. My back aches from the pain of endurance. I just wish that you didn’t trust me so much sometimes.

Doing what the brain asks you to, takes nothing. Placing a bet on something your heart says you should do, is what makes you a man.

What-masters?

You talk about being flexible, but hate moving out of your comfort zone. You can take up electives, but can't live them right now - when the stakes are nothing. And ironically, you aspire to become change-masters.

Sadly, with almost negligible work experience, and no corporate achievement to boot, I can't say if life works this way. I'd be extremely disheartened if it does. Really.

Midnight

Sometimes you know you are going down a dangerous road. Un-trodden, foolish, yet there is something that feels right. Something that you don't want and still like. And the doom, that is impending, suddenly seems beautiful.

Also, a toast to the term that was.

#hope #crazy #desperation #excitement #love #failure #brilliance

Losing myself!

When you realize you are vulnerable. When you realize you can’t be a block of stone. When you fight for all the right things endlessly. And lose yourself in the process.

As much as it makes me feel alive, it kills me slowly too. Wondering how much of it I can take going ahead, but yeah, I think it’s time. To let go.

To Zinda Ho Tum

This one's a piece from Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara. And yeah, the movie is absolutely worth it.

Dilon mein tum apni

Betaabiyan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum

Nazar mein khwabon ki

Bijliyan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum

Hawa ke jhokon ke jaise

Aazad rehno sikho

Tum ek dariya ke jaise

Lehron mein behna sikho

Hal ek lamhe se tum milo

Khole apni bhaayein

Har ek pal ek naya samha

Dekhen yeh nigahaein

Jo apni aankhon mein

Hairaniyan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum

Dilon mein tum apni

Betaabiyan leke chal rahe ho

Toh zinda ho tum.

Not an online post. A book.

Yep. Thats a late realization but still, I need to write one. Something that I will never get published. But something that will just be there.